Bro. RM's testimony for 2011
Masasabi ko ako ay tunay na pinagpala sa kadahilanang ako ay laging inaanyayahan ng ating Panginoong Hesus sa kanyang Banal na Misa. Despite my sinfulness, unworthiness, imperfections and weaknesses, God continuously invites me everyday to receive Him through the Sacrament of Holy Communion. Jesus has already arranged for victory, and it might be just around the corner. To give us confidence, He reveals Himself at every Mass when the bread and wine become literally his Body and Blood. Since he can do that, he can surely transform my tragedies into triumphs. The Sacrament of the Holy Eucharist serves as my strength, a source of inspiration and a place of healing for all my spiritual wounds. Hindi ko kaya at hindi makukumpleto ang aking buong araw na hindi nasisilayan at higit sa lahat di natatanggap si Hesus. Subalit hindi naging madali ang pagsunod sa kanya sa pamamagitan ng Banal na Misa. Nasubok ang aking pananampalataya dahil naramdaman ko na hindi ako karapat-dapat tanggapin Siya, pero bigla kong naisip ang isang verse sa Bible na “You don’t choose me, it is I who chose you.” Muli nabuhay ang aking desire para sundan si Hesus. Nagging kaagapay ko rin ang Banal na Kumpisal. Ito ang nagturo sa akin na magpakababa at humingi ng tawad sa ating Panginoon para sa lahat ng aking kasalanan. As the Proverbs 24:16 says for a righteous man may fall seven times and rise again. The occasional disappointments and failures of life are inevitable. When we encounter the inevitable difficulties and stress of life here on earth, God stands ready to protect us. Our responsibility of course is to ask him for protection. When we call upon Him in heartfelt prayer, He will answer – in His own time and according to His own plan – and He will heal us. What is required on this battle and journey is perseverance and not perfection.
Aaminin ko napapagod na ako at nagsasawa sa laban na ito. Minsan may mga araw na gusto ko na sumuko pero sa bawat pagkakataon nararanasan ko ito mas lalo ako pinatatatag ni Hesus na muling bumangon at lumaban. Aaminin ko rin sa digmaan na ito, ay nasusugatan ako ng kalooban at nadadapa pero sa bawat sugat at pagod na aking nararamdaman ay mas lalo ako pinatatapang na muling lumaban at tumayong matatag upang tapusin ang laban. Just like in the scene of Kung Fu Panda movie it says “We should have inner peace, to heal our wounds and even our scars. You got to let go of that stuff from the past because it just doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is what you choose to be now”. I can also relate to this line in the movie of the life of St. Francis and St. Claire, it says “Don’t look back Francis, and move”. These movie lines, inspire me and accept the fact that I will never be perfect if there is no grace from God. Learn from your fall and start moving forward. I believe these are the secrets of becoming a saint. While in the midst of trials, it’s difficult to feel the closeness of God and see his plan of action and understand why He is allowing us to suffer. We miss seeing the truth because we’re focused on who is causing the problem and what is happening in this visible world. We need to put our focus back on Jesus. Since he loved us so much that He sacrificed his life for us. We have proof that his love is strong it will always embrace us. Jesus will always take good care of us, doing what is best for us, as well as for all those who are involved in the same situation. I believe that Christ’s perfect love for me is the reason why I am always staying on His side. Whatever is causing us to feel anguish or distress, whatever we’re worried about, thanks to our relationship with God, it’s really never bad as it seems. Evil can never succeed.
No troubles can come between us and our Lord. God’s love won’t fail to intervene and protect us and guide us to best solutions. Even while it seems to take too long he is helping us. Saint Paul assures us that in reality, it’s not the problems that are overwhelming. It’s our victory over the problems. We conquer overwhelmingly through Jesus who loved us. Hindi ko masasabing tagumpay at nagsilbing lakas at inspirasyon. Mga taong nagdasal at hindi ako kailanman iniwan at isinuko. Nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos dahil ibinigay nya sa akin ang mga taong naging instrumento: ang Regina Coeli Healing Community, Pink Sisters, Lectors’ Guild, Charismatic group, Courage family at higit sa lahat ang pagmamahal at suporta ng aking pamilya. Nagpapasalamat ako sa ating Mahal na Inang Birheng Maria na patuloy na nagpapaalala na hindi ako nag-iisa kaya naman bawat taon ako ay inspirado sa kanyang mga salita. Mahal na Ina, muli ninyo po akong tulutan gamitin ito at bilang pangwakas at kabuuan ng aking paglalakbay sa taon na eto nais ko magsilbing kanta na aking buhay: “My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord, my spirit rejoices in God my savior. For he has looked upon his handmaid’s lowliness, behold from now on will all ages to come call me blessed. The mighty one has done great things for me and holy is his name. his mercy is from age to age to those who fear him”.